jdhmnovel Chapter 139 To See You...
Chapter 139 To See You...
"Then, what was the reason for you killing those lives?" Zeng Jun turned his head and asked, wanting to hear why Lu had massacred in the past.
"To see you, Zengjun," Lu said jokingly.
"To see me?"
"Yes, I've been looking for you for several years but couldn't find you. Where have you been?" Lu asked Zengjun.
"Well, I was imprisoned in the Heavenly Prison for a while to reflect on myself," Zeng Jun said awkwardly.
"No wonder I can't find you." Lu also shook his head helplessly.
"By the way, what do you mean by slaughtering just to see me?" Zengjun asked the part he didn't quite understand.
"Well, I guessed at the time that if I killed many lives, you would come to find me. Even if we are enemies, it would be considered that I have seen you." Lu explained the reason. Although it was a bit absurd, Lu's tone did not sound like a lie.
"But, in the end, I only killed some of them. This way, you will hate me less, right?" Lu said helplessly.
Songjun was also angry and amused after hearing this, "You killed people just to see me, and you killed less to make me hate you less."
"What's going on with this illogical yet reasonable feeling?" Zeng Jun asked himself unconsciously.
"Then do you think what you did was right?" Zeng Jun looked at Lu and asked.
"I don't care whether it's right or not, I just know that I want to see you, very, very much," Lu said.
"But you clearly knew I was coming, yet you didn't look at me right away, right? Was it because you were conflicted? Or has that unreal feeling disappeared?" Zeng Jun recalled the time when he first met Lu.
"Yeah, I know you're here, but I'm not in a hurry to see you, just like I've always wanted to see you, but when you actually show up, I feel nothing different" Lu sneered at himself, "How is it? Do you think it's ridiculous?"
"No, it's not ridiculous," Zengjun said, dragging his voice and explaining as if he was going to tell a story, "A person's happiest time is when he is about to be happy."
"What will you do after you get it? Will you not cherish it?" Lu asked.
"Happiness and suffering are the same, they are a feeling, it depends on your heart." Zengjun looked at the sky, "I once had the same feeling as you, the feeling of pursuing freedom."
"Chasing freedom?"
"Yes, at that time I was with a man whose heart was full of cages. He said that what he wanted most was to leave the desert. Alas~" Zengjun sighed after saying this.
"And then?" Lu asked, wanting to know what happened next.
"Then when he actually achieved it, he told me that he had lost it long ago, and leaving the desert was just a big lie he told. What he really wanted was to have his family again, so he finally returned to the desert." The person Zengjun was talking about was Zhao Yi, whom he has not forgotten yet.
"You mean, he got what he wanted most, and then threw it away?" Lu summarized the key points of her analysis after hearing it.
"Yes, once upon a time, he was also a person pursuing freedom," Zengjun said regretfully, as if that person was just like Zengjun.
"Then what kind of freedom is he pursuing? Does he want to do whatever he wants?" Lu wondered.
"Freedom~ It means you don't have to do something you don't want to do. Just like you are soaking your feet now, you can just lift your feet out if you don't want to soak them anymore," Zengjun gave an example carelessly.
"So do you have any regrets?"
Zengjun touched his chin and said, "Unfortunately, no, because there is a lesson behind every incident."
Zengjun took out a gold coin from the ring and held a small half of the coin in his hand to show Lu.
"I toss this coin and it will come up heads or tails"
"Uh-huh"
“If I get heads the first time and tails the second time, does that mean I missed the situation where I only toss twice would result in heads, heads? There’s also the situation of tails, heads and tails, tails.” Zengjun gave examples. Generally speaking, it was hard to tell what Zengjun wanted to express.
"If I throw it three times, there will be eight possible situations, and I will eventually miss the other seven." Song Jun handed the gold coin to Lu.
"The arrangement of these gold coins is like the things you will encounter. Take me for example. If I was not born at the same time as you, I would not have the opportunity to have divine power. If I had not been assigned to my mother, I would not have met Bushe."
"You see, everything is cause and effect, because the previous thing leads to the next thing, and the next thing will change the appearance and choice of the next thing."
“So, the path we choose is a path we pick out from thousands of options, a unique path that belongs only to us,” Zengjun said everything he wanted to say at once.
"Aren't there people who are on the same path as you?" Lu asked in confusion.
"That's because the time to go our separate ways hasn't come yet. In the end, we will all be alone." Zeng Jun said extraordinary words in an ordinary way.
"Then does my love for you count?"
"What is love?" Zengjun asked Lu, because Zengjun was also looking for what love is?
"I don't know, I just know that I couldn't help but smile when I thought of you, and my heart felt warm," Lu Xiang confessed.
'Is this the answer I'm looking for? But I think Weiwei doesn't feel warm in her heart, it's more of a desire to protect her, so I don't love Weiwei, right?' Zengjun thought.
Actually, to put it this way, Zengjun simply has a desire to protect Weiwei, and as long as Weiwei is happy, that's enough for him.
It started raining, drops of rain falling into the puddle and on Zengjun and Lu's clothes.
"This is her domain, she can control the weather, right?" Zengjun looked at Lu in confusion.
Lu was caught in the rain. "This feeling is great. The rain hits my body, flows down the corners of my clothes, and then drips down my body to the ground. It's like I helped them."
Zengjun opened his right hand and felt the rain. The rain fell on his right hand, which reminded him of himself taking shelter from the rain in his dream.
It's no longer like that, and there's no going back.
It was raining here.
On the other side, he was lying shirtless on the beach, basking in the sun.
"Ah~ It's so comfortable that I want to stay here a little longer." Yu Se faced the sky with his back against the sand.
"You are so beautiful" Manli interrupted the sigh of Yusuo.
"The sky is my blanket and the ground is my bed. It's so nice to be so free and easy. Becoming stronger is so tiring." Yusuo closed his eyes and felt the sound of the waves.
"Can you be more promising? Once you become stronger, all these will be easy for you, right?" Manli replied to Yusuo.
"Look at you~ you are so stubborn. What people get when they want it the most is the most meaningful. In a few years, if I don't sunbathe on the beach this time, I might feel guilty for half my life."