Children of Loulan

Chapter 185: Tears flow first when you want to speak

Xilin chuckled, "Oh? So that's how it is. That's great. I was worried that I would delay the king's handling of state affairs. If this delays state affairs, I will be guilty of a great sin." After saying that, she turned around lightly and walked towards Aidil gracefully. After bowing, she said softly, "Greetings, His Royal Highness Prince Xin!"

When Aidil heard this familiar voice, trying to please his father, his heart suddenly felt like it was pierced by thousands of arrows. When he saw Xilin walking towards him, he endured the pain in his heart and tried to control his emotions. He always lowered his head and dared not look at her. However, when Xilin approached, he could no longer suppress the longing in his heart.

He slowly raised his head and his eyes fell on Xilin. With just one glance, his heart felt like it was cut by thousands of sharp blades. He saw that Xilin's eyes were full of grievance and helplessness, as if she was telling him her difficulties.

Her eyes told him that she did not become the king's wife voluntarily, but was forced to do so. Her reluctance to leave Aidil was beyond words, but now their secret was known, and in order to protect Aidil's life, she had no choice but to return to the king.

Because Xilin had her back to the king and was standing between the king and Aidil, she blocked their view. When the king saw that Aidil did not respond to his wife's greetings, he said, "She is your mother's cousin. She also lives in the Summer Palace and accompanies your mother!"

After hearing his father's reminder, Aidil suppressed the pain in his heart. He sniffed secretly and held back the tears that were about to fall: "It is my son who is rude. I have seen you, Madam!"

He stiffened his body and answered with a barely perceptible tremor in his voice. Just when he was about to give up, Aisan came in again: "Your Majesty, the Queen Mother wants to see you!"

The king raised his eyebrows, and asked with some doubt in his tone: "Queen Mother? Did you say what it was?"

Aishan replied respectfully: "Your Majesty, the maidservant beside the Queen Mother only asked Your Majesty to come over, but did not say why!"

The king was silent for a moment, then stood up and said to Aidil, "You go down first, I will go see what the queen mother wants." After that, he followed Aisan out of the hall.

Aidil looked at his father's departing back, feeling relieved, but at the same time feeling a sense of loss. He sighed silently, slowly straightened up, and walked in front of Xilin: "I... I want to go to the Summer Palace to visit my mother. Do you want to go with me, Madam?"

After hearing this, Xilin's expression instantly became very complicated. After a moment of silence, she still answered with gritted teeth: "Then Your Highness Prince Xin, please go first!"

The two of them walked out of the imperial study one after another, and walked side by side on the winding palace road. Behind them followed Xilin's personal maid Xianggui.

When there was no one else around, Aidil finally mustered up the courage to ask, "Are you...are you doing okay?"

Xilin lowered her head and responded softly, "Thank you, Your Highness Prince Xin, for your concern. I am doing well."

Hearing Xilin's cold words, Aidil felt as if his heart was torn apart. He said in a trembling voice, "Are we really going to distance ourselves from each other like this?"

Xilin's eyes were moist and tears welled up in them. She tried to control her emotions and answered with a sob, "This is the best way at the moment. Since someone has already noticed our relationship, she will definitely monitor our every move at all times. As long as we cross the line, it may bring us disaster!"

Hearing Xilin say these words again, Aidil's heart felt like it was pierced by a sharp blade, and he almost suffocated with the pain. He clenched his teeth tightly, trying not to let his emotions get out of control: "Then... then have you found out who ruined our plan?"

Xilin's voice was low and firm: "I suspect it's the queen!"

Aidil frowned and asked in confusion, "Queen?"

Xilin took a deep breath and explained in a serious tone: "Concubine Ru has always been a secluded person and doesn't like to participate in court battles. This matter has no benefit to her. And Concubine Xian is your mother and has always valued you very much. If she knew about this, I'm afraid my life would be in danger.

Therefore, the only person who could possibly ruin our plan is the Queen. She is the biological mother of King Xuan. After learning that the fact that the wedding could not be changed, the best solution is to replace her! "

Aidil nodded thoughtfully, feeling a surge of regret and self-blame in his heart. He knew very well that this mistake had caused great harm to Xilin and put her in such a predicament. Thinking of this, he couldn't help but say with great sorrow: "It's all my fault! If I had directly given your portrait to the state teacher instead of telling him to find someone with a tear mole, the queen's plan would not have succeeded."

Xilin shook her head gently, with a hint of helplessness in her eyes. She consoled him, "I don't blame you. This may be fate's arrangement. In the entire harem, she is the only one who has a teardrop mole like me. It just so happened that she fell seriously ill not long after entering the palace, and then went to Yuexiju to recuperate, and you just happened not to have seen her."

Aidil frowned, thought for a moment and then said, "Just stay with your mother and she will protect you. Believe me, one day in the future, I will definitely take you out of the palace and make you my legal wife."

Xilin smiled slightly, with a determined light in her eyes. She said, "No need, Your Highness Xin Wang, I'm fine in the palace. I'll be fine with my cousin's protection. But you must take good care of yourself outside the palace. In the future, my cousin will find a better princess for you."

Aidil looked at Xilin in disbelief, only to see that Xilin kept smiling politely. He turned his head back and continued to look at the road ahead, asking in disbelief: "You don't believe me?"

Xilin smiled and shook her head: "I believe you, no matter what happens, I believe you. But, in comparison, I hope you can live well. As long as you are alive, I am willing to do anything!"

Her words were undoubtedly the deepest knife in Aidier's heart. At this moment, he wanted to hold Xilin in his arms and give her the best and warmest hug! He wanted to integrate her into his own flesh and blood and love her well for the rest of his life!

At the same time, Xilin's words were like a sharp sword that deeply hurt Aidil's heart. He stopped, turned around, and locked his eyes with Xilin, his eyes full of pain and helplessness. He knew that there was an unbridgeable gap between them, but he still couldn't give up his love for her.

"Why? Why do you say that? Don't we have any chance at all?" Aidil's voice trembled, as if he would collapse at any time.

Xilin lowered her head, tears welling up in her eyes. But she didn't stop, trying to control her emotions, and whispered, "Because I love you, I hope you can live well. No matter what happens, I hope you can be safe. This is my sincere words and my blessing to you."

After hearing this, Aider clenched his fists tightly. In fact, he also understood that the hope of taking Xilin out of the palace again was very slim!