jdhmnovel Chapter 585 Inner Struggle
Chapter 585 Inner Struggle
Jiang Ciyou stood in this luxurious yet extremely tormenting banquet venue, trying hard to maintain superficial calm, like an exquisite porcelain doll. However, her heart was like a surging sea, with waves surging and difficult to calm down for a long time.
Her thoughts involuntarily drifted back to the past moments she had spent with Lu Jingchen. Those happy times they had spent together were like a beautiful movie constantly playing in her mind. They had greeted the sunrise at the quiet seaside, with the golden sunlight shining on their young and energetic faces, and Lu Jingchen's gentle eyes seemed to melt her completely; they had also strolled on the bluestone road in the ancient town, surrounded by old buildings and the smell of fireworks, and Lu Jingchen held her hand tightly, giving her endless warmth and strength. At that time, they seemed to be in a beautiful world that belonged only to each other, away from all troubles and worries.
However, the cruel reality was like a sharp blade, ruthlessly tearing apart this beauty. Her cruel departure had brought unimaginable harm to Lu Jingchen. She knew that her departure was like a sudden storm, destroying the love castle they had carefully built, and plunging Lu Jingchen into the abyss of pain. She seemed to be able to see that on those lonely nights, Lu Jingchen wandered alone in the place where they had walked together, his eyes full of confusion and pain, and his longing drowned him like a tide.
And now, Lu Jingchen's shocking change in identity was beyond her expectations. He was no longer the seemingly ordinary gigolo she had kept, but had transformed into the son of the richest man, possessing impressive wealth, status and supreme power. This change was like dropping a bombshell on a calm lake, stirring up a thousand waves and completely disrupting her already chaotic inner world.
She felt deeply guilty for her selfishness in the past. This guilt was like an invisible rope that tightly strangled her heart and made it almost impossible for her to breathe. Every time she made eye contact with Lu Jingchen, the guilt was like a sharp arrow that pierced straight into her heart. But at the same time, she was afraid of falling into the whirlpool of emotions again and suffering even more painful injuries. The painful memory of being betrayed by her husband in the past was like a scar that was difficult to heal, constantly reminding her of the fragility and impermanence of love. She was worried that if she opened her heart to accept Lu Jingchen again, would she repeat the same mistakes and fall into deeper pain. She was afraid that she would lose herself in love again, become bruised and battered, and eventually have nothing.
Under the dual attack of Lu Jingchen's pressing gaze and words, she felt that her inner defense line was like a shaky fortress, and gradually began to shake. She didn't know how to cleverly deal with this sudden and complicated situation. Every choice was like standing at a fork in the road, not knowing which way to go. Her heart was struggling painfully. On the one hand, she couldn't forget her old love for Lu Jingchen and felt guilty and self-blame, and on the other hand, she was afraid and worried about the uncertainty of her future relationship. She tried to find a delicate balance between the two, but it was easier said than done. She was like a deer lost in a dark forest, unable to find a direction, and could only wander helplessly, her heart full of confusion and anxiety.