jdhmnovel Chapter 154: I want to marry you too
Chapter 154: I want to marry you too
Inside the chamber, Rhaegar reclined against the carved headboard, one arm resting lazily at his side as he waited for her return. The candlelight burned low beside him, casting a warm amber glow across his sharp features and the dark silk of his robes.
The moment the door opened, his gaze lifted toward Caelith.
"What took you so long?"
She walked toward him without hesitation and settled naturally within his embrace, as though that place beside him had long since become her own.
"I spoke with Erian for a while."
Rhaegar remained silent.
She tilted her face upward and searched his eyes. "Rhaegar."
"Mm?"
"He means no harm."
Rhaegar looked down at her quietly for a long moment. His expression revealed little, yet the faint tension in his eyes softened almost imperceptibly.
"I know."
Caelith rested her head against his chest, listening to the steady rhythm of his heartbeat beneath the fabric of his robes.
"Then do not be so anxious around him."
Rhaegar’s arms tightened around her waist. He lowered his head until his breath brushed softly against her ear, his voice deep and subdued.
"As long as your heart belongs to me, I will not."
A laugh escaped her lips, gentle and warm. "You’re such a fool."
At last, the faintest smile curved across his lips as well.
Beyond the latticed window, moonlight poured silently over the sleeping estate, silver and serene beneath the vast night sky.
At the first pale hint of dawn, the thunder of hurried hoofbeats suddenly shattered the stillness beyond the courtyard gates.
Caelith stirred awake in confusion. The space beside her was already cold.
Her heart skipped faintly. She sat upright at once, hastily gathering an outer robe around her shoulders before pushing open the door.
Rhaegar stood in the courtyard speaking with Lance.
The knight’s expression was grave with urgency, a riding whip still clenched tightly in his hand as though he had ridden through the night without pause.
"What happened?"
Rhaegar turned the moment he heard her voice and immediately walked toward her.
"There is an urgent summons," he said quietly. "I must leave the capital for a time."
Caelith froze where she stood. "So suddenly?"
"Sadly."
He lowered his head and pressed a gentle kiss against her forehead, lingering there for a brief moment.
"Wait for me to return."
Caelith nodded softly, though unease had already begun to spread through her chest like ripples across still water.
Rhaegar mounted his horse in one smooth motion. Before departing, he turned back to look at her one final time.
That glance lasted only an instant.
Then the sharp sound of hooves echoed through the narrow alley, fading swiftly into the distant morning haze.
Caelith remained standing beneath the courtyard eaves, staring silently at the now-empty street beyond the gates.
The early morning wind still carried the chill of night.
Lance had yet to leave.
"Miss Caelith," he said respectfully, "my lord instructed me to escort you back to the duke’s estate."
Caelith nodded. "Thank you. I will get ready then."
***
During breakfast, the smile on Caelith’s smile never faded.
It softened her entire expression, bright and radiant in a way rarely seen upon her usually composed features. Even the servants nearby could not help stealing glances at her.
Erian sat quietly beside her, watching in silence for a long while before finally speaking.
"What are you so happy about?"
Caelith lifted her eyes toward him. They sparkled brilliantly beneath the morning light, the corners of her lips curved upward with unconcealed joy.
"I am getting married."
Erian paused. "Married?"
"Yes." She set down her spoon, unable to hide the happiness in her voice. "I am going to marry Rhaegar. From now on, we will remain together forever and never be separated again."
Erian watched her with narrowed eyes. "Forever?"
"Yes." Her smile deepened. "Forever."
He lowered his gaze briefly before speaking again, calm and straightforward as always.
"Then I want to marry you too."
Caelith burst into laughter, utterly amused by the innocent sincerity of his words. She reached over and lightly tapped him on the head.
"You silly child."
Erian said nothing more. He merely lowered his head and continued eating quietly, his expression as calm and unreadable as ever.
Caelith paid no further attention to it and soon rose to begin tidying her belongings.
Yet from the side, Lance watched the scene unfold with growing unease settling heavily in his chest. Something about it felt deeply wrong.
An hour later, Caelith boarded the carriage bound for the duke’s estate.
The wheels rolled slowly across the stone road as the carriage disappeared farther and farther down the street.
Erian stood at the entrance, watching silently the entire time.
Beside him, Yvaine couldn’t help but ask, "Erian, are you not going with her?"
He shook his head. "She is going to the duke’s estate," he replied quietly. "She does not need me there."
Yvaine nodded and turned back inside. But Erian remained standing where he was for a very long time. His head lowered slightly, as though immersed in thoughts no one else could see.
At that moment, Lance stepped out from within the courtyard and glanced toward him.
Slowly, Erian lifted his head. Their eyes met across the quiet morning light. That gaze remained calm and still, no different from how it had always been.
Lance gave him a slight nod before turning away. Erian watched his figure disappear into the narrow alley.
Then he lowered his head once more and remained standing there without moving, like a lonely statue abandoned beneath the cold morning sky.
***
That afternoon, Erian left the courtyard alone.
He had never once touched alcohol in front of Caelith. Long ago, Osvald had taught him one rule above all others: wine clouds the mind; a clouded mind loses control; and those who lose control die quickly.
For twelve years, Erian had remembered those words without fail. He had carried them like iron laws carved into his bones, never once allowing himself to forget.
But today, for the first time, he no longer wanted to obey.
In the eastern quarter of the city stood a small tavern tucked between two aging tea houses. The faded wine banners above its entrance fluttered weakly beneath the evening wind. Erian had passed by the place countless times before, yet he had never stepped inside.
This time, he pushed open the door.
The tavern was noisy and thick with the scent of wine and smoke. Merchants laughed loudly over their cups while wandering swordsmen argued drunkenly in the corner. The warmth inside struck sharply against the chill lingering on his clothes.
The innkeeper looked up at the sight of the young man and paused slightly in surprise.
Erian’s appearance was too clean, too cold, too detached from a place like this. Though his robes were simple, the sharpness in his eyes carried the unmistakable danger of someone who had walked too long beside blood and death.
"What would you like to drink, sir?"
Erian looked at him coldly. "The strongest wine you have."
The innkeeper hesitated briefly before bringing over a goblet of shimmering golden liquid.
It was a harsh northern liquor, strong enough to burn through a man’s throat like fire.
Erian took the goblet and lifted it to his lips. The instant the liquor touched his tongue, scorching heat exploded through his mouth and tore down his throat into his chest.
Hot. Violently hot. So fierce that even his eyes stung faintly from the burn.
Yet he did not stop. He kept downing one goblet after another.
His expression never changed as the fiery liquor disappeared into him, but the tips of his ears slowly reddened beneath the candlelight.
The innkeeper watched with growing unease.
"Sir... this wine is extremely strong. You should drink more slowly..."
Erian ignored him entirely. The empty wine goblets gradually piled beside the table.
By the time he reached the third pot, darkness had already swallowed the city beyond the tavern doors. Rain clouds drifted across the moon, leaving only scattered lantern light trembling along the streets outside.
At last, Erian rose to his feet. His movements were no longer entirely steady.
Behind him, the innkeeper hurriedly called out, "Sir! You have not paid yet!"
Erian paused. As though only just remembering where he was, he reached absently into his robes and tossed several broken pieces of silver onto the table without even turning around.
Then he stepped out into the night.
The cold wind struck his face the moment he left the tavern, stirring the alcohol deeper into his blood. The city lights blurred faintly before his eyes as his footsteps wandered unevenly through the narrow streets.
At some point, he stopped beside a deserted alley and leaned silently against the stone wall behind him.
For a brief moment, he closed his eyes. But the instant darkness settled beneath his eyelids, Caelith appeared before him once more.
Her smiling face.
The soft glow of lamplight falling across her features as she bent quietly over her embroidery.
The sight of her standing beneath the moonlight, her voice gentle as she spoke to him.
"Erian," she had once said softly, "one day, you will have happy days too."
His fingers tightened slowly at his side.
I will not be happy. I have nothing. Nothing at all.
From the very beginning, he had been nothing more than a shadow standing behind her in silence, watching a warmth he could never reach with his own hands.
The night wind swept through the empty alley, cold enough to chill the bones.
Erian lowered his head slightly and stood there alone beneath the darkness, allowing the burning ache in his chest to spread quietly through him like poison.