The Great Doctor Girl

Chapter 139: The Shadow of Sin in the Abyss of Kindness

I decided to work with Huang Junze to use our meager strength and our own way to reduce the number of Su Junshengs in this world and bring more warmth and hope.

Even if our strength is as small as a drop in the ocean, as long as we persevere, it will eventually gather into a powerful torrent and destroy the fortress of evil.

Recalling the day the court announced the verdict, my mother stood in the last row of the courtroom, her slightly trembling hands tightly gripping the back of the chair. Her knuckles turned white from the force, as if that was the only support she could hold on to at the moment.

Her eyes never left Su Junsheng, like two sharp swords, trying to penetrate his soul and see through the sin deep in his heart.

There was no expression on her face, but her eyes were like burning flames, staring at the man who had ruined the lives of countless people. The flames were filled with anger, hatred, and a persistent pursuit of justice.

At the moment of the verdict, the entire courtroom was silent. Only the sound of the gavel falling echoed in her ears, like a heavy hammer hitting her heart, and every sound shook her soul.

"The defendant Su Junsheng is guilty of multiple crimes including intentional injury and duty-related crimes. He is sentenced to life imprisonment..." The judge's voice was sonorous and powerful, but it seemed to come from the distant horizon, and became vague and distant in the mother's ears.

My mother's body shook slightly and she almost couldn't hold on. Fortunately, the back of the chair behind her provided her with some support.

At that moment, her mind went blank. Years of pain, hatred, and expectations came flooding back like a tide, making it almost unbearable for her.

There was a mixture of complex emotions in her eyes, including relief, the relief of finally seeing her enemy punished.

There was anger, immense rage towards Su Junsheng's actions, and also sadness that could not be concealed.

She murmured in a low voice: "This is the retribution he deserves, but who will compensate for those lost lives and broken families?" This is her questioning of fate and also her questioning of the fairness and justice of this world.

At this moment, she did not feel as relaxed as she had imagined, nor did she feel much joy.

The pain that had been weighing on my heart for many years seemed to suddenly find an outlet, but what followed was a deeper emptiness and melancholy.

She thought of those times that could never be repeated, those nightmare-like years, and finally understood that this victory did not mean that everything could return to the starting point. Those lost things could never be recovered, and all that was left was endless pain and regret.

She had fantasized about this day countless times, fantasized about Su Junsheng's arrogance being completely defeated, fantasized about him standing in court with his head bowed and confessing his guilt, fantasized about him paying the price for his evil deeds.

She thought that when that day came, she would feel unprecedented relief and would loudly vent the anger that had been suppressed for so long.

But when all this actually became a reality, she found that her inner emotions were far more complicated than she had imagined.

It was an indescribable feeling, like finally seeing a ray of light after groping in the dark for a long time, but finding that this light could not dispel all the darkness.

She looked up at the sky, tears in her eyes, and whispered, "Dad, Mom, may your souls rest in peace. The perpetrator of that fire has been brought to justice. He ultimately could not escape the punishment of the law. I have longed for this day for so many years, but now that it has finally arrived, my heart is filled with bitterness. But I know that justice will eventually prevail. I will live well with your love, and I will strive to make the days ahead full of hope."

Her steps gradually changed from heavy to light, and although they were still slow, she was no longer hesitant.

She understood that Su Junsheng's punishment was a manifestation of justice, but that cruel past would not disappear easily because of a verdict.

That bloody past seemed to be engraved on every nerve of hers, causing her to feel a dull pain all the time.

However, she also understood that the pain of the past could not become her entire life. She could not be immersed in pain forever. She still had a future and hope.

On the way home, she looked at the familiar street scenes outside the car window, as if nothing had changed as before, but her heart felt like it had experienced a huge storm.

She recalled the countless nights when she woke up crying from nightmares. On those nights, fear and despair enveloped her, making it impossible for her to sleep.

Thinking of how she tried her best to protect her family in the dark days, that was her instinct as a mother and her only perseverance in the darkness.

Thinking of those families who lost their loved ones because of Su Junsheng, their pain is also the pain in her heart.

She knew that although the trial was over, the pain still lingered for the victims' families.

When I got home, my mother sat down gently on the sofa, closed her eyes, and rubbed her knees slowly back and forth with her fingers, as if trying to calm her inner turmoil.

I walked gently to her side and handed her a cup of hot tea. The rising steam, like warm hope, spread through these cold memories.

She opened her eyes, took the teacup, and whispered, "I've waited for this day for too long, but now that it's finally here, I find it's not as easy as I imagined." There was a hint of fatigue in her voice, as well as a hint of confusion about the future.

I didn't say anything, just stayed with her quietly.

In this silence, we are all thinking about the past and the future, and the meaning and value of life.

She continued, "You know what? In those years, I often asked myself, why is justice always late? But today I understand that sometimes, although justice is late, it will always be there. And our responsibility is not only to wait for it to come, but also to survive in the process of waiting and find our own meaning."

My mother's voice was low and firm, and I could sense that something was changing inside her.

The arrival of this day allowed her to finally put down the burden on her heart. Although she still felt regret and sadness in her heart, she no longer clung to the pain of the past.

That is a kind of growth and also a new understanding of life. I know that my mother has let it go.

She turned her head and looked at me, her eyes gentle but firm: "Luo Shu, your future is still long, and we can't lose our expectations for life because of the past. You must try to learn to live again, for yourself and for those who have passed away." Her eyes were full of longing for the future, which was the fire of hope rekindled in the darkness.

I nodded and held her hand.

The sunlight shone on us through the window. At that moment, I seemed to see that her figure was no longer so heavy, and her face had a long-lost peace and relief.

It is the rainbow after the storm, and it is also a beautiful beginning for our new life.

The next day, I still couldn't bear what happened to Su Jingyan, so I finally decided to go to the hospital to handle Su Jingyan's funeral.

When Huang Junze learned of my idea, he expressed his willingness to accompany me without hesitation.

His eyes were firm and warm, giving me great support and strength.

Walking into the hospital corridor filled with the smell of disinfectant, my steps unconsciously became heavy, and every step seemed to carry compassion and respect for the passing of a life.

In the relevant office of the hospital, I told the staff my purpose.

They looked at me with a hint of surprise in their eyes, but more of understanding.

The process of handling the formalities was tedious and heartbreaking. I needed to organize various documents and confirm my identity information. Every step was like opening a wound that had not yet healed.

I saw Su Jingyan's name on those cold papers. Her once vibrant life was now reduced to only these cold records. I felt mixed emotions.

Huang Junze stayed by my side silently, patting my shoulders from time to time, silently comforting me.

When I arrived at the place where the bodies were stored, the chill seemed to penetrate my bones.

The staff slowly pushed out Su Jingyan's body. She lay there quietly. Looking at her tightly wrapped body, he felt infinite emotion.

I whispered to her softly, "Su Jingyan, rest in peace. May you no longer be entangled in lies and pain in the other world." I whispered softly, my voice echoing in the silent space, carrying with it my endless sympathy and regret for her.

Huang Junze stood aside with a solemn expression. He and I paid our final respects to Su Jingyan.

After completing all the formalities, I contacted the funeral home and arranged everything that followed.

Watching the staff carefully carry her body away, I knew that this was the last thing I could do for her, and it was also a comfort to a soul that had been teased by fate.

When I got home, I told my mother all this. My mother sighed softly and said, "All this was caused by Su Junsheng. He committed an unforgivable crime, but she is innocent. You did the right thing. Let her have a resting place." I nodded silently, and the image of Su Jingyan and her life full of regrets kept appearing in my mind.

Huang Junze came over to me and said, "Luo Shu, everything you did today makes me admire you even more. In the face of such pain and hatred, you were able to have compassion and give Su Jingyan a final dose of dignity. This requires tremendous courage and kindness."

I shook my head slightly and said softly, "Junze, I just don't want her to go so miserably. When I saw her lying there, I just felt that life is too impermanent and fragile, and should not be trampled by the sins of others." I looked at the night sky outside the window. The stars were twinkling but seemed out of reach, just like the justice and hope swallowed by the darkness.

I looked out the window at the night sky, my heart filled with emotion about the frequent tragedies in the world.

Su Jingyan’s story made me see the pain of human nature.

Late in the night, when everyone was asleep, we sat facing each other in front of the window, looking up at the vast and boundless night sky.

The stars are twinkling, like broken diamonds inlaid in the sky, but they cannot illuminate the deep thoughts in my heart.

Huang Junze sighed softly, breaking the silence: "Luoshu, have you ever regretted the hardships and dangers along the way?" I shook my head slightly, my eyes firm: "Junze, I have never regretted it. Although every step was like walking on thin ice, my faith was as strong as a rock."