jdhmnovel Chapter 429 Losing Hope
Chapter 429 Losing Hope
Lu Jingchen sat slumped in the corner of the room, with empty bottles and cigarette butts scattered around him. His eyes were empty, as if the whole world had lost its color. Once upon a time, the future he and Jiang Ciyou had woven together was so beautiful, full of infinite longing and expectation. In every picture of the future, there was Jiang Ciyou's figure. They would greet the sunshine every morning together, stroll on the path under the sunset together, and share the joys and sorrows of life together.
He recalled the days when he and Jiang Ciyou planned the future together. They once sat on the rocks by the sea, and the sea breeze blew gently, bringing a salty taste. Jiang Ciyou leaned on his shoulder and whispered, "Jingchen, we will build a house by the sea in the future, a house where we can see the sea every day." He held her hand tightly at the time and replied, "Okay, we will also plant your favorite flowers around the house, so that the whole yard will be filled with the fragrance of flowers." At that time, the future was like a gorgeous painting, slowly unfolding in front of them.
But now, Jiang Ciyou's departure was like a sudden storm, tearing the beautiful painting into pieces. He looked at the decorations in the room that he had picked with Jiang Ciyou, and his heart was full of bitterness. The exquisite little ornament was discovered by chance during a trip. When Jiang Ciyou saw it, his eyes sparkled with surprise, and he bought it without hesitation. And the painting hanging on the wall was seen when they attended an art exhibition together. Jiang Ciyou said that the painting made her feel peaceful, so he went through a lot of trouble to get it and hung it in the room they lived in together. Now, these things have become sharp weapons that hurt his heart.
Lu Jingchen felt like a child lost in the darkness, unable to find his way home. He once thought that as long as Jiang Ciyou was by his side, no matter what difficulties they encountered, they could overcome them together. Their love was so firm and unshakable. However, the reality was so cruel that everything came to nothing just because of the return of her husband. He tried to understand Jiang Ciyou's choice. Perhaps it was because of the years of feelings that were difficult to give up, or perhaps it was because of family responsibilities and social pressure that forced her to return to the man who had betrayed her. But no matter how he thought about it, he could not accept this fact.
He used to have all kinds of plans for the future. He wanted to take Jiang Ciyou to explore every corner of the world, to places they had never been to, and experience different cultures and customs. He wanted to learn cooking with her, make each other's favorite dishes, and then enjoy dinner under the warm candlelight. He also wanted to raise a pet with her, watch it running around them, and add more fun to their lives. But now, these plans have become unrealized fantasies.
His career also lost direction because of Jiang Ciyou's departure. Before, he worked hard to give Jiang Ciyou a better life and to be the man she could rely on. He was full of energy and went all out for every project because he knew that Jiang Ciyou had his support and encouragement behind him. But now, he has no interest in work anymore. Those business plans that once made him excited are now like a pile of meaningless waste paper in his eyes. He no longer cares about the development of the company, no longer attends those important meetings, and even begins to avoid his colleagues and partners.
Emotionally, he fell into the abyss of despair. He felt that he would never fall in love with anyone else. Jiang Ciyou had already occupied the most important position in his heart, and no one could replace her. His belief in love completely collapsed, and he began to doubt whether love really existed or was just a lie made up by people to satisfy their desires and needs. He thought of the love stories he had read before, and those happy endings seemed so far away and unreal to him now.
He tried to find some comfort from the memories of the past, but those memories were like a double-edged sword, which made him feel warm but also made him more painful. Every fragment of memory seemed to remind him that he had lost the most precious thing. He once thought that he was the happiest person in the world, and that he had the love of Jiang Ciyou, and that he had the whole world. But now, he felt that he was the most pitiful person in the world, and that losing Jiang Ciyou was equivalent to losing everything.
His body had become weak due to long-term alcoholism and smoking, but he didn't care about his physical condition. He felt that the physical pain was far less than the pain in his heart. As long as he could temporarily forget the fact that Jiang Ciyou had left, he was willing to endure any physical torture. His life had lost its regularity, and there was no difference between day and night for him. He didn't know what he should do, nor did he know what else he could do. He was like a walking corpse, wandering in this hopeless world.
He looked at the world outside the window. The sun was still shining brightly, and people were still busy shuttling through the streets. But all this had nothing to do with him. He seemed to be in another world, a world full of darkness and despair. He remembered walking on the street with Jiang Ciyou, looking at the people around them, they would guess the stories of those people and share their feelings with each other. But now, he can only face this cold world alone. Without Jiang Ciyou's company, everything has become meaningless.
He felt like an abandoned child abandoned by fate. No matter how hard he tried, he could not change this cruel reality. He once believed that fate was in his own hands, but now he understands that some things are beyond his control. Jiang Ciyou's departure was something he could not control, which made him feel extremely helpless and desperate.
He began to recall his life, from his carefree childhood, to his high-spirited youth, to the happy time after meeting Jiang Ciyou. He felt that his life was like a dream, a beautiful dream, and now he woke up from the dream and found that everything was illusory. He didn't know how to face this reality, nor did he know how to go on. He felt that he had lost the courage to live and lost hope for the future.
Dear readers, in this chapter, Lu Jingchen fell into deep despair. His despair was not only because he lost his love, but also because his world collapsed in an instant, and all his beliefs, dreams and hopes left him. This is a very heavy emotion. I hope that through such a description, everyone can feel his inner pain and helplessness. Sometimes, life is like this, and a sudden change may put us in a desperate situation. But please believe that even in the darkest moment, there will always be a ray of light. I hope everyone can continue to pay attention to Lu Jingchen's fate and see how he can get out of this abyss of despair.